Past Two years of my Life

This should have been written 2 months back. But its always said, never express when you are angry or excited, you might regret your words. I needed this break to do justice to two years of my life.

I wanted to be somewhere else but I got some other opportunity and I took it. A new place with new people, and the advantage of algorithms. Starting of every novel is beautiful with lakes, ducks, friends, freedom ... not everything lasts. An eventful two years, started with "don't end" and ended with "when will it end". It is so strange, the feelings about a place/person change drastically with time. 

I had a feeling the place will leave me with a scare and I would never be what I used to be. But it is a myth that people change, the core always remains the same. Now again I am in a new place with new people, and I am still the same old self, as I remembered. The two years showed me both shades of red. The beautiful red of rose and the dark red of blood.

I learnt to trust and I learnt these trusts will be broken

I learnt to make friends and I learnt they will hurt you

I learnt idols do exist and they are made of stone

I learnt to believe in things and get hurt when they turn out differently

I learnt to be betrayed and I learnt to love !

The funny part is - I got the chance to get over things, move on in a new place with new surrounding, but I don't want to. I am not ready to leave behind everything I had - not the roses I got neither the blood that I lost. I guess it taught me to hold on and be stronger :-) Sometimes you should stay put !!

Lani Misalucha - Very Special Love Lyrics

I never believed in love

I was deceived by love

I never had much luck 

With lovers before

And I couldn't compete

I seemed 

Just part of the street

To be walked on 

By everyone but then

Then I found 

A very special love in you

It's a feeling 

That's so totally new

Over and over 

It's burning inside

And I found 

A very special love in you

And it almost breaks me 

In two

Squeezing me tighter

But I'm never gonna let go

You're not like the rest

I know 

You're one of the best

You give more 

Than you should 

And take nothing 

In return

Stay always with me

And I always will be

The one person 

That you can count on 

Always to love you

And I found 

A very special love in you

It's a feeling 

That's so totally new

Over and over 

It's burning inside

And I found 

A very special love in you

And it almost breaks me 

In two

Squeezing me tighter

But I'm never gonna let go

And I found 

A very special love in you

It's a feeling 

That's so totally new

Over and over 

It's burning inside

I found 

A very special love in you

And it almost breaks me 

In two

Squeezing me tighter

But I'm never gonna let go

Trends in Friendship

It all started with the girl next door, initially people used to know only thy neighbors. Be it friendship or rivalry it was with the person who stayed next door. Then people started travelling and met new groups, at work places and during journey, they made new friends. The relationships progressed from next door to probably next cities, as the conversation always starts from ‘where are you from?’ Telephones and letters allowed people to be in touch. Means of communication changed and improved. With time it became easier to stay in touch. Internet era changed the face of communication. From knowing the entire generations of the families, to only the person, to not even seeing the face of the ‘best friend’ you made. Whoever invented this chat room concept – Hats Off!!! Teenagers for fun, lonely seeking companionship and others just for experience, almost everyone used chat rooms. Relations made in chat rooms lasted for various durations. I guess there were few best buddies and few spouses found and still maintained. I know a couple getting married, who crossed each other on web and I know a friend who met an internet pal last month, after 10 years of chatting/emailing/facebooking. Chat rooms still had some ethics. At least ‘asl’ was the first question asked, but you can easily fool that, so I take back my statement about ethics maintained in the chat rooms. Relationships made in chat rooms were generally with an id and the text. Then came the social networking era – here the relationships are with the profile, photos, status, likes and what not. How true a friendship is, when you see and talk to the person face to face or on the web, totally depends on the two individuals. The means of friendship may have evolved from next door neighbors, to cubicle mates, to service mates, to facebook, but the essence has not. It’s the two people involved who make the relation, though the means keeps changing. True friends are found and maintained, however the relationship started.

Good bye !

Good Bye....

Some say they are the most difficult words to say

Some say they are the part of our life

But the worst is the good bye that was never said

People come and go in our life. 

Some stay for long some stay for short. 

There are few that stay forever.

This blog is about some feelings that can never go.

Some people I always miss in my life

and some answers that I would never know.

I am a traveler I am a wanderer,
like a nomad I have been shifting houses.

I meet people, I have great times
I have sad memories too but I always have to move on.

Some are forgotten and some are engrossed deeply in the mind.

Some sweet some bitter but every memory is a souvenir.

I have lost loved ones in course of my life. 

Saying goodbyes is probably my worst fears. 

But, like I said above the worst is the good bye that was never said.

I wish through this I can get a closer to all unsaid goodbyes
and just remember the pleasant past. 

I never thought friendship would be a relation that required closer but I realized it is. Friends are easy to make and easy to lose in journey called life. 

Sometimes you know the reasons sometimes you don’t.  

Sometimes there are ways to fix it sometimes there are not. 

Sometimes they are around to fix it sometimes there are not

Sometime it you sometimes it is not. 

Sometimes it just written as such...RIP J

1000 Years Lyrics (Innocent Steps OST)

Moment, you came to my heart just by chance
To me you don't seem to be a stranger
It took so long for you to finally find me



For a 1000 years
I've been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years


Sometimes I know it will not be easy, yes true
Until then I w ill pray for our true love
Don't ever forget my love
we will be together


For a 1000 years
I've been w aiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years


Don't say
I don't want to hear you saying 'Goodbye'
Please promise me
You will always be my love
my love


For a 1000 years

I've been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years


I've been waiting for you
More than million until fall in eternal love
Remember forever more
we stand for a 1000 years